Crikey, 2019. When did that happen? I can still remember what I was doing on NYE 2000 (fyi it was playing twister, flashing my knickers (during twister, not for the fun of it) and stealing sips of my Mother’s WKD.
2018 wasn’t the greatest year for us. A few good things happened; I was featured in the April edition of Homestyle magazine, and I launched the sister site to my vintage homewares store, Lace & Liquor Girls. But 2018 was the year we lost Kane’s Dad and Nan within just a few short weeks of each other, so the sadness of that overwhelmed anything else.
I’m excited for 2019 though. Since having Ada my businesses have had a serious knock. I used to be able to spend all days working, finding new stock, writing daily blog posts. All of that has fallen by the wayside, and sometimes over the last few years I’ve gone months without hitting publish on here. But from today Ada ups her nursery hours to five mornings a week, so I’ll get some routine back. It gives me huge mama guilt to admit I’m looking forward to it; I love having Ada around, but I love working too. Although there was a little tear driving home from nursery this morning!
There is a ridiculous amount of pressure at the start of the year to join a gym, get on a diet, start dry january, read 189 books in the year.. I’m sacking it off and working on some simpler goals instead.
Be kinder to myself:
One of my 2018 goals was to believe in myself more, and it’s something I’m still working on. If I’d have money worries this year, instead of believing I’ve get through it, I told myself I was a failure and I was failing my daughter. Not great for the law of attraction believers. I’ll be celebrating all those small victories this year, as well as hopefully a few big ones.
Be more organised:
I know, I know, this sounds awfully resolution-like to me. And it slightly is, but with good reason. From today I know I’ll have five mornings a week to work to myself. So I need to get organised, and plan out what I’ll be doing when. I’m taking influence from my girl Victoria and sorting out a batch working plan; I have four streams of income, so I’m forever having things I need to get done pop into my head before the last one was completed. Batch working lets me plan what I’m tackling on which day so I can concrete on the job properly.
Do more with Ada
One of the things I’m really looking forward to about Ada being in nursery is being able to spend the time we do have together properly. Trying to work at home with a toddler is HARD. I am forever feeling guilty when I ask for just a few more minutes to work and she’s asking me to play with her. No more having to pawn her off on the ipad so I can finish off some parcels or respond to emails. I’m planning more regular trips to the park, cinema dates, and we’re going to sign up to our local library.
So honestly, that is it! I could do with losing a couple stone too, but I honestly can’t even be bothered. I’m just about rocking that self-employed life and being a good Mama this year.