This post is a little delayed, considering Ada's six weeks now, but really it's highly appropriate because EVERYTHING is delayed with life as a newborn. Everything you can think of (eating, showering, sleeping) goes out of the window in place of 1-2 hourly feeds, changing lots of nappies and cleaning up puke. The first couple of weeks were probably the most testing of my life, but my goodness is it worth it. We've settled into a bit more of a routine now, so whilst I might not have learnt much, there are a few things I've discovered along the way.
You can forget ever again about having a hot cup of tea. I think my record of microwaving one cup was four times. You'll never know how much you need hand cream until you're a mother; all the washing up and washing clothes has turned my hands into an old ladies already. You'll turn into a nappy changing pro; the first time I ever changed a nappy I put it on backwards, now I can change one within twenty seconds without removing tights or booties. Despite sleeping for 10 hours a night before pregnancy, you'll quickly learn to survive on as little as three or four hours.
You'll go through every single emotion in a day. You'll start off happy but can quickly feel overcome with stress and frustration when you have a fussy baby and absolutely no clue as to what the matter is. Most of the time there isn't one, they probably just want a cuddle; being a baby is hard in this new and scary world. You'll find yourself resenting your partner for the strangest of things, like being able to spend longer than ten seconds on the loo. You'll get used to the smell of baby sick on your clothes, and you'll stop minding that as soon as you change they'll spit up on your shoulder. If you're breastfeeding, you'll miss coffee like no other.
Reading back over this I've probably painted a pretty negative view of motherhood, but overall, you'll wonder how you managed without this little bundle of joy in your life. You won't mind waking up in the middle of the night to feed, because their face is just so peaceful. You won't mind spending so long soothing her to sleep, because you're making your baby happy, and you might just get a quick flash of a smile in return. You'll cherish spending all day on the sofa doing absolutely nothing because they'll never be this tiny again, and you should make the most of it.
Ada is six weeks old now and the time has gone quickly, but at the same time I feel as though she's been here forever. I love staring into her eyes when she's nursing, and how sometimes she'll stop half way through to give me a big smile. I love her little fingers and how they grip onto different parts of me, I don't even mind the hair pulls. I love how she breaks out a huge smile the minute her daddy walks through the door. I love how she curls up on my chest and falls asleep, even when I'm bursting for a wee but don't want to disturb her. I'm gradually realising I need to slow down a bit and soak in as much as I can each day. Motherhood is hard work but I honestly marvel every single day at this gorgeous little human I created with Kane, and I'm going to make the most of it.